antheasanthem.blogspot

2009-10-26T20:39:00.003+08:00

I Hate This Thursday

2009-10-22T09:45:00.000+08:00

Scrwe blogger.com. It always fucks up my images, and takes away pixel information, and is incredibly hard to align in one bloody bar. I may just permanently post in tumblr.com, since not much people read and I'm sure friends would gladly redirect. It's so much simpler there, and the images are waaaaaayyy nicer.

Half of me is willing to go..

The other half is just worried that blogspot might sue for promoting tumblr. Butttttt, that's pretty much an invalid concern. So --- LET'S GO

Birthday Loot

2009-10-18T22:45:00.002+08:00

How did I celebrate my birthday? Well, it was done over a span of a few days. A few dinners here and there, thanks everyone for making it down! Firstly, dinner with Sshroomiess, then a night at SOHO with Chubis! I'll let the pictures speak for themselves, with a little commentary along the way.

My gift from Chubis, or was it only Yink? Nevertheless.. That little badge on top of the birthday present flashes, and inside is an emergency "break glass to open" pair of rings! One for him, one for. You can only guess what the emergency would be. No pictures of that though..

And to end off, can you do this with a cup of dice? We were playing halfway when Gerald pulled this stunt. He actually took the cup and gave it a couple of shakes, and it still ended up intact. Quite cool eh? God of gamblers in the making.

And, Lance's birthday present to me, which I picked myself! I reeeeeeeally love it. This picture doesn't do it justice.

Well that concludes my birthday post. More pictures up on facebook though!

Anyway, I've started a new blog, just for posting pictures without much description, or for my newfound adventures on Photoshop (yes a bit late I know that) or of my drawings etc. Just a whole lot of absolute rubbish, so do check it out and give your opinions if you would! Not much in there now, but it'll pile up soon enough. Click on the link on the sidebar, or click antwined.tumblr.com

Not A Toy

2009-10-15T14:01:00.002+08:00

Moonlight party at St. Nicholas! Before they tear the school down on 25th November. By the way, they've been saying that they're moving since a year ago, but still they're stuck in AMK. I'd rather much they not move though, renovations are always welcome.

Well, the rest of everybody pangseh-d us, so there was only me, Jieying and Carmelita. Right now, I'm craving the fishball noodles, the fried wantons, the meatball mee-sua.. I would kill for a plate right now.

And then, here's a snap of Lance with a french braid.. I did it to him while he was on the computer. Cute! Maybe only to me though.. Hm.

By the way, Happy 20th BIRTHDAY TO ME! No pictures, no whatsoever because there's no celebrations. Lance went into army (and may face DB) and all of the rest are only free on weekends. Lunch with mom today, though. And maybe shopping with Steph! Wish I had a birthday cake and candle to blow out though.

Wear It Work It

2009-10-06T15:41:00.000+08:00

What do you think? Feasible idea? Images taken from Google, models taken from http://www.asos.com/.

Fishy Fishy

2009-10-06T13:06:00.001+08:00

Oh my. What a dead blog.

Well, I've got nothing to update with anyway.. TOODLES!

Don Corleone

2009-09-30T06:17:00.000+08:00

Sitting here, waiting for L to pick me up for supper/breakfast. It's 6am in the morning, and I'm contemplating a move to tumblr.com because of it's simplicity. I'm one for simplicity, and neatly arranged slices of life. It's an obsession really, it's like an OCD which I'm aware about but just refuse to control. I like it that way.

Can't figure out if I'm tired or not, because my eyes are warm and my head is heavy, but for some reason I just can't fall asleep peacefully.. Maybe it's the environment, it's the first night I'm attempting to sleep at the Balestier apartment since my dad's been back, and I've failed miserably. I hate to sleep alone, I need him. Makes me wonder what's going to happen to me during his reservist period..

Made 2 skins yesterday for pokerstars.com.. I must say it's relatively easy to make once you know how. But according to L, they're both not as nice as he would have imagined, although one was made for humour instead of actually functioning as a skin. I'm going to try again though. Poker's been really bad to him, because whenever we try to pick ourselves up after an obstacle, something is bound to screw up, in his head, or in mine, or in the Poker arena.

Everytime I do something stupid to him, I want to hug him to death despite his lacklustre response. I am so lucky.

'Tis The Season

2009-09-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

.... for formula 1. Yeah, boring I know. But it's the only thing thats closest to any kind of excitement in my life.

So, this is the update I finally get around to doing after 2 weeks. Yink's 20th, Sara's 20th, Wing's 20th as well. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN TO YOU ALL. And, *coughcough* I'm next. Then, a night out with 2 people I haven't seen in such a long time, and a birthday for Steph as well. I think I'll let the pictures do the talking.

In-fucking-credible

2009-09-14T20:43:00.000+08:00

This guy is insanely good.

Go to youtube.com and search 'Honda Cog' to see the Honda commercial out of parts assembled by him! It's mad interesting.

Laptop Love

2009-09-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

Back from Comex 2009.. where L bought a laptop with a crazy humongous 18.4 inch resolution to replace his previous laptop. It's the only laptop I've ever seen actually had a number pad on its keyboard. And, it's high definition so we can watch movies on there! I could rave about it all day, I'm always retardedly jealous whenever someone gets new gadgets and I don't, maybe 'cos I don't need any.

Shut up Ant.

Lance is hopefully on his way back right now, because I'm hungry as hell and I really want to start cooking my salmon baked rice! My phone is dying until tomorrow, so no sms-es and calls until I get home. Shit I feel so disconnected..

Never Ever Land

2009-09-09T18:34:00.003+08:00

My hoarde of coins from Macau.. I don't know how the Macanese travel around with such bulk in their pockets. They have $5 coins equivalent to 2 of our singapore $1 coins.. and it's such a hassle differentiating the HK and Macau currency.

A beautiful bottle of Absolut purchased from Dufry at the airport. It's only.. 30 bucks! Dirt cheap compared to the shit we pay for in clubs. No wonder they're rolling in dough. Anybody interested to open one with me? We'll be shitting green by the end of the month.

And, off to Neverland! I've never been there before, but it seemed nice. But the live performances were lacklustre. Well, dear Lance abandoned me, so I went drinking to drown my sorrows. Speaking of which, he lost his passport, so tomorrow's Hainan trip would most probably be wasted on us two. What a bummer! I was looking forward to going, to get away from cityscapes. But, no way Jose.

Yeah that concludes for now. I'm still craving foie gras.. and waiting for His Majesty to appear again.

I'm A Chap

2009-09-09T13:55:00.003+08:00

Everybody's favourite at Sabai, or was it Icon? Bouncer told me to stop taking photos, but I simply couldn't help myself. AND, you guys should hear the song above the picture. Gorgeous! (The song, not the picture.)

Drift Deeper

2009-09-05T08:51:00.002+08:00

I want to dig a hole in the ground and let it swallow me up out of sight.

Going Nowhere

2009-09-04T00:54:00.004+08:00

All around me are familiar faces

Worn out places, worn out faces

Bright and early for the daily races

Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses

No expression, no expression

Hide my head, I want to drown my sorrow

No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny

I find it kind of sad

The dreams in which I'm dying

Are the best I've ever had

I find it hard to tell you,

I find it hard to take

When people run in circles,

It's a very very, mad world.

Imagery

2009-09-03T21:27:00.004+08:00

Fisherman's Wharf in Macau, first time there for steamboat dinner. Under those pots are stoves, but what I fail to understand is how the water can boil with the tablecloth untouched, unspoiled at all!

Macau & A Broken Nail

2009-08-31T17:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, in the midst of spinning slots at Wynn, I discovered this -

My first ever broken nail! HOW the hell do these things happen, I would like to know. What seemed like no trouble/pain at all suddenly turned into a big brouhaha over something males would classify as being no big deal. Fuck, it was (made-believe) PAINFUL!

So, I told the concierge to get me some nail clippers and went chop-chop on the little bastard that ruined my life.

Those are the remnants of my first french-ie manicure as well. Then, phoned L and he said, "You should leave it alone, let it heal by itself and then wrap it up with layers and layers of plaster." Ho ho ho, one step too late, are we not!

And, if you were wondering, me and him are fine, albeit stuck huge in poker terms. Grass and fresh air for a living, from this day on, since that day at the airport where limpei WAITED 5 freaking hours for His Majesty to appear. And, we're still being ripped off layer by layer of flesh, testing to see how far we can fall into the deathly gambling never-ending pit.

OKAY MORE GAMBLING SEE YOU BYE

Country Hopping

2009-08-27T20:30:00.003+08:00

Yersterday night, I was having a conversation with L on the phone, and without finalising details, the phone was hung up. Waited for a call back, yet got nothing, so I was awake till say.. 5? Then, went to bed, set double alarms to catch the flight in the morning.

Fast forward to this morning, woke up at 9.30am, which was the stipulated time. Tried to get through to L, still nothing, so dropped him an sms telling him that my flight would arrive at 3+, not 4+ like he said it would be. No reply. Packed, got my stuff ready to go, and realized that I was a teensy bit late. Got a cab, told the driver to STEP ON IT! and then, CRASH.

Car accident. Just a minor scratch on a major lorry, and I get delayed by a grand total of just 10 minutes. Reached budget terminal, only to see the gate closing before my eyes.

There, another flight missed. But wait! All is not over yet! Went to the ticketing counter to be told that all flights to Macau are either cancelled or full, until Saturday, and that the same Saturday ticket would set me back another $190. Then wouldn't it be better that I just buy a whole new ticket? I asked. And the person at the counter went, yep, Saturday flights are usually more expensive. Sheesh.

So, dropped L an sms. Still no reply. At a crossroads over what step to take next.. decided to jet to Hong Kong then ferry to Macau, since I've never been to Hong Kong before anyway. Dropped him a message. Got onto the next flight to Hong Kong on Singapore Airlines. Dropped him another message, saying that I'd be "on the 130 SQ to HK". So, according to him, he checked and there's no SQ130.

Now, let's start with a poll. How many people would just try and figure out that 130 actually means 1.30pm, or would think that I made up some ghost plane ride that goes to HK?

Yep.

Then, reached HK international airport, still no sign of him. Frustrated. Basically, all means of common sense are gone here. If you can't reach someone on your phone, use someone else's. If other phones don't work, buy a prepaid card. If that doesn't work, try to call the other party's contacts. If that still fails, be there waiting, and just use a miniscule part of your brain to realize that 130 means my flight leaves at 1.30pm, and go figure out my arrival, hence, my flight number. Because on my part, I've taken a plane to have no hope of finding you, it's that hard for you to take a ferry to me?

So basically, now I'm here at the airport waiting, albeit blogging. I can't buy a ticket, because my card has zilch left, after everything's been drawn out. I can't get on the next flight, because that would mean $1k SGD, and even so, it's 8am tomorrow morning, and then 11.30am after that. I can't go anywhere, because your ass is on its way here, and I would be a bitch if I didn't wait, would I not?

All I'm hoping for right now, is a ticket home, and an end to all my misery. But, that wouldn't happen so nicely now, would it?

Plain Suicidal

2009-08-25T06:12:00.005+08:00

Blogger isn't working again,
lost a few thousand just now,
Lance's phone just went dead,
two more long awful days before I see him again,
period is here (which means effing cramps),
eyes sore from not wanting to sleep,
not catching a single good hand on tourney,
BROKEback land, here I come.

I live on the 15th floor, see?
I could just take a little hop off my balcony
and all this shit will be over.

Basically, I just wish L was here.
Things would be so much simpler than this.

*SPITS*

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And I just busted out a tournament AK vs AA.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK MY LIFE.

Donkaments

2009-08-23T18:13:00.002+08:00

I feel.. LOST.

Not much to look forward to these days.

Catch Cabbage Patch

2009-08-22T01:58:00.002+08:00

Cabbage soup, which I cooked experimentally! Turned out fine, except I went a tad overboard with the salt.. worth another try though, simple and easy to make. A head of cabbage, tomatoes, sausages, chicken stock, olive oil and some pepper are all you need. You can add salt and pepper to taste, and carrots, ham and the likes as well. Just make sure you boil the cabbage nice and soft, and let the flavours melt together. Great for dieting, I must say.

Then, fondue with watermelon (!) and strawberries washed and cut. It was delicious! This stay at home thing is addictive, I stepped out to buy bubble tea earlier and I can safely say I look like your average auntie heading to the market. And L, the uncle in slippers tagging along.

And, new shoes and clothes! This pair is my personal favourite among my hoarde. Black, snakeskin, and pyramid studs. Favourite mix.

Lance is heading to Macau in a couple of days. After he missed his first flight, then his second, I figured if he still misses another, it's predestined for him not to go. Secretly I hope he does =x

The Big Surprise

2009-08-18T10:52:00.007+08:00

Celebrated L's 28th birthday with a seafood dinner, then KTV. Gave him a mini surprise with only Nat and Hansel early, then exceeded my reservation to fill up a room with the party of 25. Thanks everybody who came! I hope you all had fun.

Tucked into a heartening meal of Shark's Fin soup, delicious crab (specially peeled for me) and intruiging conversations. Put out fires, crab meat decor, and as always, poker theories. Then, forced the whole gang to head down to Top One, where the room was waiting for us to blow out both birthday cakes. They were delicious! And then, only a few of us sang while the others went crazy playing dice. How they finished the Martell cannon, I would never know, but both Tiger towers were left intact at the end of the night. Talked about life, career and a whole slew of other emotional stuff. All that matters is that our king had his fill.

Supper after, then home again. An empty pocket, but worth it so.

The Little Chef

2009-08-12T01:56:00.003+08:00

And I hereby pat myself on the back for making delicious french toast, failed baked spaghetti, so-so fried salmon and sausages, and fantastic floats, throughout the course of 3 days after me and L went Mustafa crazy at 4am. Oh the wonders of Mustafa! Now, I'm clean out of spaghetti sauce and eggs, and root beer. Time for another trip!

It's gonna be a lot of home cooking from now on. But oh god how I miss foie gras.

Ham & Cheese

2009-08-08T07:52:00.007+08:00

Whooo, finally settled down to blog, with my new camera! Must say, it's a steal for $450 at Mustafa. Yes, I went on a daybreak expedition and found the Ixus 100 among other things.

First, let me show you the apartment! The furniture was all picked out by me, except the TV console. Its white, so very much unlikely to be picked out by me, and more likely to be picked out by him. Regrets to colours and such.

And, a failed attempt yesterday at baking brownies from instant brownie mix. Looks fine, but according to my mum, it's so good that we should give it to everyone else. Yea, boo.

Oh and before I forget!

Happy BIG 20 to Tata Tan!

Pictures were before she got dead drunk. And a detour before that gave me cheap Wagyu for dinner. From Orchard to DXO to Dbl O, why the hell would all these clubs be name 3 syllables (or was it syllabus? Fuck my English) !! Yes yes, I know, Yink, I am a bimbo. Sigh. I think it was the fact that I was still dazed from waking up. Anyway, the champange, the weird sweaty dancefloor and even weirder remixes, I still have no idea why you'd choose to spend your big day here. But it was fun, and you were drunk, you probably won't remember a thing tomorrow. But, HAPPI BURFDAE anyways, Ta! Pictures will be up on Facebook once I'm on my own computer.

Ivan The Not So Terrible

2009-08-05T09:33:00.005+08:00

I'm addicted to GTA4 right now! Meet Niko Bellic, my stupid new best friend -

Best part of the game? The car jacking, Little Jacob and Pay'n'Spray. Basically the cars. Right now my game progress is only 17% yet my missions attempted has hit 52 (with less than 50% passing rate). Dis grass n'good for ma hand-eye co-ordination, seen?

On another note, Lala needs a bath desperately and an Omaha session yesterday left my boy a few geez poorer. So I resort to tummy-rubs for comfort. And, I still haven't got time to get that camera! Shit, my shopping and to-do list is piling up by the day.

NO SLEEP TILL BROOKLYN, Imma go koonz now.

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Oh yeah I almost forgot! Here are some pictures from Friday I'm In LUV, courtesy of Calvin and his photographer -

There's plenty more but not uploaded, especially the image with L looking like some weird magician, love them, but I'm too lazy to scan them in. Do check out their stuff!

www.fridayiminluv.com

Mind Fucking

2009-08-01T02:12:00.002+08:00

Off Postsecret

Back On Track

2009-07-28T17:58:00.003+08:00

Yay Blogger is working again.

Line-up for the day -

Poker tonight, poker tomorrow.

Poker right now, online as well.

This exciting life of mine.

Coming up, photos of my new home! Wheeee.

Bugger It

2009-07-27T06:11:00.003+08:00

I am pissed off. Officially. Because..

a) I don't have a camera.
b) What the hell is wrong with Blogger? I can't upload photos? Since when??????
c) L said he'd call and he didn't. Time wasted waiting.

MAJOR SIGH.

Roanoke And Earhart

2009-07-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

The unexplained never fails to instill fear and curiosity in me..
http://www.neatorama.com/2008/03/27/seven-mysterious-disappearances/

Some food for thought..

Ashes To Ashes

2009-07-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

Bye bye, Gong Gong, reserve a place for me in heaven ok?

We play mahjong once I'm up there, if I make it up like you.

At my grandfather's funeral now, in bishan. The last few days of his life were pretty torturous, so my relatives chose to cease medication and up the morphine to make him more comfortable. And then, my mom said, she watched him as he took in each breathe slowly and deeply, and finally stopped. Like the end of a song.

You'll always be remembered, for your braininess and stubborness,

and the joy you brought to all.

Lines Crossed And Blurred

2009-07-16T21:44:00.001+08:00

Hello there young magician.

Your job, to con the audience. Plenty proud of it, until someone sees through your tricks. Even till then, you'd try to distort the truth, and pretend what just happened didn't happen. What, do I look like a fool to you? So, in order to avoid a temper, you pretend like there was no show. So in future, it's gonna be all "I knew you'd flare up, so I didn't tell you" for every secret that you keep, and I find out. That's a sorry excuse, one which you've achieved tier 1 in usage.

And, guess what, I'm sorry for blatantly getting angry too. I'm sorry for blatantly being exposed to your facades. I'm sorry that I have to blatantly tell you, I don't trust you anymore.

Teach me, how to trust someone whom sacrificed it, whether it's little things, or big things, time and time again, each time saying sorry for it. It's like having nothing to show for your effort, nay, honesty. I can't look you squarely in the eye. It's like, each time I know something is wrong, but yet you will not tell me. It will always be, because I might get angry. Because I might get hurt. Because I might leave you. You are drifting further and further away from me, and God knows how I can live with a stranger in the house. I'm trying, I think. But I don't know what is enough, and what is too much.

Soon enough, this cliff will end. I have limits, so do you. And I have needs, I am human. All I ask is that you could feel how I feel. But that's asking for too much, isn't it?

Sigh, I don't know what to do anymore.

Morning Blogging

2009-07-16T04:29:00.000+08:00

Hi all, here I am, sleepless in Singapore and blogging. Scanned through my phone the other day and found pictures that have been rotting in there for ages, so here we go!

This morning, L and I went to the all-famous Katong Laksa stall to have our breakfast. It was delicious! Then, it didn't feel enough for L, so we went to the stall next door to have..

Shark's fin soup with rice!

It's really cool, it's shark's fin soup, but the rice is poured into the soup to make it like Mui Fan. I was skeptical at first, but it's really delicious! It's an entire meal in one.. you should go try it when you have the chance. It's next to 328 Katong laksa, the branch opposite Eastgate.

And, here's the ultimate protection against H1N1..

Meet Rorsharch!

Pranked L while waiting for my turn in the queue for the Eye Clinic at TTSH. He told me not to post it, but it's too funny!

Look at how much tissue I used laughing..

One sick puppy.

Pork Prata

2009-07-14T15:04:00.000+08:00

Build Me Up Buttercup

2009-07-10T13:52:00.001+08:00

Butter Factory, where we were mistaken for Koreans, stalked by random men, and had one too many peanut butter shots for comfort. Good night out, y'all, and happy birthday my dear Jane! Time for bed and then poker again in the evening, as well as Hoe Ann's birthday. Here's wishing you a good one in advance!

Food Cravings

2009-07-05T03:29:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm gonna compile a list of my favourite places to eat here, just in case I have a craving for something and I forgot which place has it. Will add to it as I go along. If you guys wanna try the food there, go ahead and google them.

The French Stall

Sun On Moon Japanese Restaurant

Cedele Bakery

Dozo Modern Japanesque

Shaslikh Russian

Au Petit Salut

Shokudo

Pho @ Holland Village
Gyu-kaku

Wha fuck I'm craving all of them right now!

Not For The Faint-Hearted

2009-07-05T00:30:00.000+08:00

I am procrastinating being well. After a decently long time of sleeping too freaking late (say, like 12 in the afternoon after a long night of poker), not eating well, my body is finally showing signs of giving way. Signs like an incurable ulcer, infected eyes, and it feels as though H1N1 hit me too. Or would feel better than this.

Which is why I cannot wait! To move into the new place. Hopefully I'd be inspired to work out more, because if I go swimming right now (it is 12.32 am) or jogging, my mother would freak out. Even she gets more exercise than me by picking durians.

Lance sleeping on my bed, collapsing after two days of non-stop online poker. I wish he'd stop stressing himself out like that, even forgoing meeting his friends today. Although I can't say I'm not happy about that, I'm always worrying about his 'fan girls' or whatever they're called. So old and still so immature, the kind that would pop out of a bush at any moment.

Another poker session tonight, which I'm still in knots of whether to go.

Too much gambling is too..

Still Banned

2009-07-02T03:05:00.001+08:00

Tried heading myself into Zouk previously tonight.. failed miserably though. Took one glance at the bouncers at all the entrances and went, "No, it's impossible, forget it." But, I tried anyway. To which I got a piece of paper to write my name and number down, if ever they un-ban me from the place. Geez, now I know why the Yellow Ribbon Project is failing, ex-cons can't even pay for their jobs, let alone be paid for them :D

So the whole lot of people whom I regretfully dragged away for a few minutes of their night out waited with me while L was making his way down. And, I doubt I'd be able to head back into that place, for a long long time. So Chubis, I'm so sorry girls! This time I tried to not KKBZ but the circumstances force me to. Really wanted to spend the night out, but (hopefully) there'd be more chances, soon! Love you girls.

Look, Phua Chu Kang and Rosie at the back of our photo. 'Be gracious, a happy journey starts like that' - This is me saying, the irony of it all! Screw the system!

Bye Bye Michael Jackson

2009-07-01T10:46:00.000+08:00

Such a long time since I've blogged. Well, lots of stuff have happened if you ask me.. like, how I just came home from a visit to TTSH Eye Clinic for an eye infection, before that I was at a poker game where I tumbled from up $500 to being down $1k, where I got a phone call from a friend that another has left (our lives) permanently. And before that, went to two birthdays, one where my new shoes got chewed off by a Yorkie (Happy Birthday Kelly!) and another where we failed to get the girl dead drunk and also failed to sing our songs. Yi Mei, sweetums for blowing out impossible candles, refilling our drinks to the tune of 4 seconds alcohol flow, seemed like 4 minutes. Really, if you wanted to poison us, do it more discreetly la! By the way, you're TWENTY you old fuck, hoho!

And, welcomexzxz back SARA! If the chocolates were yours, I could've very easily stolen the whole box of darks. Also, kudos to my darling Koa-kachu, who's been through everything with me. Which reminds me, we're moving in to the Metz! Love the new place, can't wait to do up the furniture. Any ideas?

PS. Transformers was good, Ghosts of GF Past was so-so, Up was great. Go catch'em. And, PS expired so blah-ish pictures for now.

None Of Your Bees' Knees

2009-06-19T19:36:00.000+08:00

Me in L's alien specs.. before I handed it back to him. Looks pretty normal doesn't it?

Such a long time since I last blogged.. back from Macau and busy catching up with friends.. But here's my viewpoint of the world..

Had an epic day when Lance's Thai girlfriend messaged him saying, "I miss you, do you miss me?" and I kicked up a big ruckus about it, and she said, "Don't fear, u wife Lance, me wife too. Y?" I then decided it was better to show her pity instead. Seriously, the names of these nationalities are tarnished by these so-called representatives. Like for instance, China has Dragon Girls, Thailand has prostitutes and whores, so does Vietnam. At first, my impression of Thai girls were okay, until I found how just how low they can go, and it takes just one crack to break the whole glass. Same goes for China, they were okay to me until it almost happened to my family, and it happened to my friends. Shameless is what I'd call it. Absolute black sheeps. Which reminds me of racial stereotypes.. Foreigners and such. Personally, my view of them is guilty until proven innocent, sad but true.

I digress. Watched Ghost of Girlfriends Past with Yink and Lance, who was seated one row behind, 6 seats away and snoring so loudly, my gosh.

Embarrassing but what do you do when you love somebody? Oh well.. and Yink's face under medication, as though it was burnt.. but it got better already.

I am hereby addicted to shopping, and foie gras.

The Killers - Human

2009-06-09T13:13:00.000+08:00

Does anybody know where to get that feathery jacket in the video, or something simiar? It's beautiful, it's sort of inspired me to include feathers in apparel designs. I can't wait to get started!

Morning Tilt

2009-06-09T11:27:00.000+08:00

My body clock is so backwards that I think I've missed out a span of at least 3 days in my life before switching back to awake-in-the-mornings-and-asleep-at-night. But nonetheless, le pig is still fast asleep and in the midst of sitting around doing basically nothing, I ran some errands.

Picked up the laundry, which was amazingly packed in clear plastic bags and neatly pressed. Gotta love it! But imagine the amount of plastic they use.. Boo for the environment. But hurray for the effort. I'm gonna miss this sort of pampering when I get back to Singapore, but at least I still have my boy/maid. He spoon-fed me my supper last night because I was too tired! It's times like these that makes me love his goofyness, even though his chew-kena-kah, like he always says of me. Amidst him hiding in his cave of bedsheets, he is too effing cute and obnoxious.

Then, got myself a salmon sandwich from the bakery downstairs. And hid myself in the bathroom while I ate it. Isn't the hotel's bathroom nice! I can believe we've been staying here for 14 days, makes even the flies leave our wallets (I might add that the pig just bought a new one, a dandy one from Prada! And one for my dad for Father's Day from me, a Giorgio one hooray!)

So that sums up my trip, besides the Kings vs. Aces, Aces vs. set, set vs. set, set vs. straight, and all the other coolers, even PTR says I'm cold now. Sigh. Well at least I have Riches of the Amazon to keep me company ;)

Ripped Off Flowerpod

2009-06-04T14:33:00.000+08:00

I laughed out loud at these while Lance was sleeping.. I think he must have thought I was crazy, or just being myself.. taken from the Flowerpod forums.

Stupid Lawyers

These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts, things people actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by court reporters who had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place.

ATTORNEY : This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?
WITNESS : Yes.
ATTORNEY : And in what ways does it affect your memory?
WITNESS : I forget.
ATTORNEY : You forget? Can you give us an example of something you forgot?

ATTORNEY : Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo?
WITNESS : We both do.
ATTORNEY : Voodoo?
WITNESS : We do.
ATTORNEY : You do?
WITNESS : Yes, voodoo.

ATTORNEY : Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until the next morning?
WITNESS : Did you actually pass the bar exam?

ATTORNEY : The youngest son, the twenty-one-year-old, how old is he?
WITNESS : Uh, he's twenty-one.

ATTORNEY : Were you present when your picture was taken?
WITNESS : Are you shittin' me?

ATTORNEY : So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th?
WITNESS : Yes.
ATTORNEY : And what were you doing at that time?
WITNESS : Uh.... I was getting laid!

ATTORNEY : She had three children, right?
WITNESS : Yes.
ATTORNEY : How many were boys?
WITNESS : None.
ATTORNEY : Were there any girls?
WITNESS : Are you shittin' me? Your Honor, I think I need a
different attorney. Can I get a new attorney?

ATTORNEY : How was your first marriage terminated?
WITNESS : By death.
ATTORNEY : And by whose death was it terminated?
WITNESS : Now whose death do you suppose terminated it?

ATTORNEY : Can you describe the individual?
WITNESS : He was about medium height and had a beard.
ATTORNEY : Was this a male or a female?
WITNESS : Guess.

ATTORNEY : Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition
notice which I sent to your attorney?
WITNESS : No, this is how I dress when I go to work.

ATTORNEY : Doctor, how many of your autopsies have you performed on dead people?
WITNESS : All my autopsies are performed on dead people. Would you like to rephrase that?

ATTORNEY : ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to?
WITNESS : Oral.

ATTORNEY : Do you recall the time that you examined the body?
WITNESS : The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.
ATTORNEY : And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?
WITNESS : No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing an autopsy on him!

ATTORNEY : Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?
WITNESS : No.
ATTORNEY : Did you check for blood pressure?
WITNESS : No.
ATTORNEY : Did you check for breathing?
WITNESS : No.
ATTORNEY : So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
WITNESS : No.
ATTORNEY : How can you be so sure, Doctor?
WITNESS : Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
ATTORNEY : I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?
WITNESS : Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law.

Love In Traffic

2009-06-01T09:49:00.001+08:00

Found a new software called WireTap.. Fabulous stuff. Lets you record any audio you can't download from the internet, and yes of course I'm can't figure out BitTorrent. And lets you edit the audio too, so you can be a mini-DJ.

On a side note, things are getting worse in Macau. It seems everyone around me is on a losing streak, or ridden with bad luck, me inclusive. As Lance will put it, winning the good players is possible, but we will always and forever, lose to fishes. So we're taking a break for the day, he's sleeping right now, next to me.

Went to D2 for a party session before Alex left Macau. Jackson, CS, DY, Alex, Lance and I. 'Til this day, I'm still horrified by their 'Golden Showers'. And haunted. What is up with guys and sexuality? Why can't everyone just be normal, boy likes girl, girl likes boy. Boys don't like boys, girls don't like girls. Yeah a little prejudiced on my part, not to mention the fact that I'm a tad racist too. I cite Russell Peters on this.

And, may I present Lanceryosuke, my very own Barbie doll a.k.a. guinea pig -

I Remember

2009-05-27T07:44:00.000+08:00

Early Thoughts

2009-05-23T08:03:00.001+08:00

Just got back from an absurdly early breakfast with a friend.. and being probed into thinking thoughts I would normally try to avoid, because they're negative in the view of the world. Somehow, this past period of time has shown that the world is detrimental; we are all pieces of the same puzzle unsolved, placed in wrong aspects at times, placed right but not held together, or placed right but removed in doubt. I think, even though times may be testing, life will present itself in the queerest of ways to you, no matter how deep your hole may be dug. There is always a reason to live, if not, there's always a reason not to die. We are human, there is always that little.. something. I don't know how big it may turn out to be, or how insignificant. But, there's always.. something.

Miracles happen every day.

Bad Bouts Of Flu

2009-05-23T05:00:00.000+08:00

Hey, and hey I've changed my blog layout again, but this time it's pretty much all my effort. I hope you guys like it! I got the idea when I was in the shower. Yea I know pretty much weird ideas at a weird time but whatever.

Anyway, not much updates to my life over here, except that I'm gonna be headed to Macau on Monday, for maybe a week or two? And that L and I have been taking turns to fall sick, I think it's just us passing the shuttlecock back and forth. Night At The Museum was pretty good, but Horsemen's ending was way too retarded to be considered clever. But Angels & Demons, oh boy, I loved it, and was struggling not to spoil the ending for L throughout the entire movie. Just removed my nail polish, and my nails feel strangely painful. Now, I'm off to do another layout!

Some Artwork

2009-05-21T02:31:00.001+08:00

After downloading Photoshop and a massive array of brushes, I experimented a little with pictures and such. It started with Lance wanting a new layout for his blog, and voila! Here we go, just like magic. It's sort of addictive, this Photoshop thing. I hereby dedicate myself with learning how to use it properly (not just this easy stuff) and apply that, too, to designing apparels. I foresee the start of a beautiful future, hoho!

Too Much Hollywood

2009-05-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

May 19, my brother's birthday, and I have no idea what age he is turning. Bought him an iPod Touch, only to realize that it can surf the web and everything. Unfair! I should've bought one for myself, but then that will make a total of 4 iPods in this household. Here's his yummy chocolate cake from Bakerzin..

And, Lala in a hollow white cone. I hereby declare her, Conehead! She was itching so I brought her to A&E for pets, and the vet found out about her ear infection. So, the white shit is there to prevent her from scratching. I never found out what it was for until now!

Okay see you guys, I'm off!

Makes You Schtick

2009-05-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

Swollen red eye, plus flu and a little hint of cough.. and all the other stuff I can't mention. I think I caught the SWINE FLU! Saw face masks at the petrol kiosk today, am seriously considering buying them.. Anyway, I'm just here to leave a little note, nothing much these days to blog about, yeah boring life. Downloading Photoshop now to make L a new layout.. can't wait! I was inspired by blogskins.com and the amount of shit they have there. If you want a new layout you should go check it out. Yes I know it's been around long time, but hey, I'm a net bumpkin. Toodles!

The Joke's On You

2009-05-14T16:39:00.001+08:00

Haha, so I changed my template again and the font's really really small, good luck to you if you want to read my entries! I thought this template was nicer, cause it's plain and simple and uncluttered with pictures. Hope you like it (except the font size of course)

The Mad In Macau

2009-05-14T10:00:00.000+08:00

I know I've been back for an absolutely long period of time, but here are my updates from Macau. The pictures have been rotting in my camera, until L found the darned cable, and I get around to uploading these. Lazy him + lazy me = no deadline.

The night before setting off to Macau, Yink and I went to a place I love so much, and ate.. foie gras! This is my second plate below, half-eaten and polished off later on. Oh crap I feel the craving for it coming on again..

Then, Nic and I jetted off to Macau, 'cause busy Lance was in Chutchut (or Tuktuk, forgot which it was) Land. I say, it was the land of misery. Macau, interestingly is a land of contradiction. Famed for its casinos, and it's churches. It's two extremes, my friend! But these buildings are so old, the architecture is beautiful, even though I'm not a church fella. My aunt says I need to pray much more than others, because I'm such a degenerate gambler.

That's a confession box, according to Nic, but I wonder who's inside and who's outside? The priest inside, sinner outside, or the other way around?

Guess what these things below are, and no, it's not an art installation. These were found at the base of the lighthouse.

Below is a really ancient library, but we weren't allowed to take photos. But I managed to sneak one picture in, even though it's a tad blur (okay scrape that, very blur) but you can generally see why it's such a rustic place, can you not?

Then it was partying at D2 with Merv and everybody else, where I got smashed, I have no clue how I ended up on the hotel room floor, with Nic, Steven and Jackson snoozing away. Must thank Steven for his wicked plans. But, D2 was great, because they played TRANCE! Hell yeah.

This was the only club I'd ever seen serve fresh veggies with their alcohol. It's good that some people are trying to keep even their puke healthy, I guess. That's crackers on the left, and, cucumbers in the middle, carrots on the right, and wasabi soya sauce to boot. Yum!

Koreans, by the way, really know how to party and let loose! Most of the time when you enter Singaporean clubs, you see everybody standing around and trying to look cool. But over in Macau, once you've hit one drink or two, your inhibitions are *poof* GONE! Then you party like Sunny over here..

Okay this dragon in the picture below was NOT in D2, it's Wynn's dragon, which Ghost and Ekin generously contributed through Baccarat. Let's cheer for them! Whoohoo! Next year, there'll be a baby dragon next to it.

Gays in action, look at that squint and horror!

Then after the storm which was the previous disheartening entries, L flew over, apologised and made everything better than before.. It's a long story though, but I'm just glad its over.

See that chandelier in the picture below? Well, it's not a real chandelier, it's just graphics on a huge-ass screen over the tree (which is real). It's amazing, isn't it! I only realized it, after it was still for such a long time, and it morphed into a visualization, kind of like those in iTunes? And I couldn't stop exclaiming to L, " NOT a real chandelier! AHHHH, amazing what money can do!"

One of my big wins in slots, when the gold coins start tumbling off the machine, it's a big win. But slots is so negative that you probably paid more than you should have for just this.. but I like Riches of the Amazon though, when you get to Macau you should try. Jackpot party!

Okay that's all for now.. longest post I've done in ages. See you!

Blue And Yellow

2009-05-06T15:17:00.000+08:00

Few days left in Macau..

for d'gen-ing and grinding.

Not that bad of a haul, Lance is up and so am I.

But not much, plus the money's leaking

faster than we can make it.. SIGH.

But I'm glad, I got my Channel,

and the fishes are slowly getting raped

in alphabetical order..

plus our random thoughts and random talks,

I think it pretty much completes my picture.

See you guys on Friday!

Stormed Over

2009-05-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

Blogging from the confines of Golden Dragon Hotel, the name a bit terok I know, but no choice, cos over here it's Labour Day. And so glad it's the sunshine after the storm. There's a fat Pokemon next to me lightning up his hair, and Pokerstars eating every cent. Gambling around every corner, China men and women talking at the top of their lungs, as though they're always mad at something. Love the life!

L.O.V.E.

2009-04-28T05:29:00.000+08:00

We think about it, sing about it, dream about it and lose sleep worrying about it. When we don't know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain, but we don't know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word - easy to spell, difficult to define and impossible to live without.

- Anonymous

Blurry

2009-04-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

So make up your own ending

And let me know just how you feel

'Cause I am lost without you

I cannot live at all

My whole world surrounds you

I stumble, then I crawl.

And you could be my someone,

You could be my seed.

You know that I will save you

From all of the unclean

I wonder what you're doing

I wonder where you are

There's oceans in between us

But that's not very far

Can you take it all away

When you shoved it in my face

This pain you gave to me?

Barely Pulling Through

2009-04-27T08:10:00.000+08:00

You'd think that after so long searching

when you've finally found happiness

that you'd actually deserve it, and keep it.

But it's not amazing, or surprising that

this life just isn't cut out to be.

I don't know what to think anymore

I don't know how I'm going to face the future

I especially don't know how I'm going to face you.

Stuck in this foreign country,

half-hearted to go home because you're there.

And I don't think I can take it.

Sometimes when you can't find your parents,

you're always told to stay put until they find you,

much like how I hope that this time,

my missing heart will come back to find me.

Until then, I lay defeated.

Edit..

I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING

BUY A TICKET HOME.

Wham, Bam, Thank You M'am.

2009-04-26T00:52:00.000+08:00

When I awoke, I found myself -

lying on the floor,

with a swollen jaw,

with a hangover,

big aunt over my doorstep,

gastric pains at the side,

and fantastic news over the phone.

Great night.

Muses

2009-04-23T02:56:00.000+08:00

I MISS HIM.

Funny, I feel crippled.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow

just because I know it's a day closer

to seeing him again.

This is a sign of weakness, this is!

I'm stronger than this.

Luckily, I've company.

If I carry on my days alone,

I think I'd probably..

(Okay la, exaggerate a little)

DIE OF LOVESICKNESS.

Hahahahhahahahhaha.

Shopaholics Anon

2009-04-23T01:18:00.000+08:00

Back from a long, tiring day with Yink!

Would upload pictures, but I don't have the cable..

First, I made my way down to NYP

after much hurrying and fussing from her

I finally realized what her hurry was.

But, it's still unclear to me

if it was good news, or bad.

Parked at Cine, ate at Chicago's,

then headed down to Topshop

to buy undergarments,

and stopped at Taka for it's

bags/shoes sale, ending up with a pair of boots.

Watched 17 Again, and went to visit Mr. Mus after.

Spent a huge sum of money today!

Wasn't even aware of it!

Sigh, the life of a shopaholic..

Macau again, tomorrow! Updates from over there ;)

Something Happy

2009-04-20T19:50:00.000+08:00

As I was telling Nic the other day,

usually, people blog only when they
have something sad to say,
or something extremely happy.
Those moments in between,
where there's not too much joy,
not too much sadness
(I'd speak for myself) I'd tend to leave out.

So, here's one of those little joys that
I would make a habit
of keeping a record of..

Handsome Suit!
With Sshroomss, Lance & Jackson.
A little of HK Cafe, where I'd be
trying to convince everyone to KTV
but mission failed, in which,
they agreed to watch a show I picked instead..

And, I'm off again!

Mental Note

2009-04-15T15:26:00.000+08:00

Weird dreams..

Hotdogs, rescue at sea,

Flying human bumblebees.

Jealousy & abandonment.

Team spirit, ship pending crash.

Live learning, war.

Toy soldiers, life-sized.

Classroom chaos, kidnapped family.

Like Watchmen's The Comedian.

Weird, unusual things that go through my head.

I've Had Enough

2009-04-10T15:40:00.000+08:00

After all the swinging,

after all the hands that couldn't hold up,
after playing unlike I've ever played before,
things still don't work out,and it just keeps getting worse on my end.

Busted online, after tilting
Now, I have no cash, no morale,
and no drive to continue any further.

Somehow, my life will never work out the way I plan,
like a mosquito constantly flying into glass.

I quit.

A Bad Dream

2009-04-09T03:24:00.000+08:00

I got invited to a reality talent show

by my boyfriend and his parents.

On the show, while on the air,

for some weird reason, I was asked to cut

his hair, then his mother's, except this lady was

not his mother. I remember a face, I think it was

that of my mother's. And I remember thin hair,

which, as I cut, became thicker and thicker.

Then, overnight, I became a celebrity.

Somehow, the next flash was of a filming set

of an action film, straight out of James Bond.

I entered a pyramid-like structure, and walked through

a public toilet, and got mistaken for the cleaning lady.

Then, when I went to meet the director, I was ignored.

For some reason, the director was on a platform

above the acting scene, shouting instructions

through a loud-hailer. He said, "It's time for reviews"

and began shouting points at each actor watching

while facing his platform and loud-hailer towards them.

When it came to me, the platform stopped on the floor

and he said, "Anthea, YOU'RE FIRED."

And that's when the gory bits began.

I walked towards him, and attempted to kick a TV set

showing the playbacks of scenes. The TV didn't break.

Failing which, he laughed and said, "I'm not that stupid."

Then I picked up a pencil, ran towards him and

STABBED him multiple times, while he was still laughing.

Then, I walked away towards a taxi stand,

where people were standing around, without a queue.

I searched my bag, and found, three penknives.

I remember, it was magenta, and clean,

much like those fresh from stores.

And, it was sharp.

I ran back towards the set, and slashed the director,

blood spilled, like a pool. It was deep red.

I could see his guts spilling out, all the while

he was laughing and pointing at me.

And then, I woke up.

A Short Note (Okay I Lied)

2009-04-05T05:16:00.000+08:00

Hello readers. Or whoever's reading this.

I'm back from Macau, not a bad trip I must say.

Learnt a lot by losing a lot and then winning back a little.

There are so many things in life that I want

but I can't have, or that I feel is actually a need

when these are 'wants'.

Nevertheless, the materialistic 3 quarters of me

have an almost-impossible-to-fufil wishlist.

But, at least they're more within reach than,

say, a private home on a island off the Gulf,

or a Ferrari Enzo.

Here's to dreaming..

Mercedes C180 Coupe (or a used one will do too)

Has all the characteristics I want in a car

Two door, continental (for stability),

just the right amount of compact, and classy.

Not way out of reach, just a few more months.

I like to dream realistic dreams.

http://www.sgcarmart.com/used_cars/info.php?ID=42117&DL=1287

Chanel 2.55 Everyone's must-have

Sadly, I don't-have. And not just the normal, black one.

I want an odd-colour, I'm sick of black bags.

Saw one in Japan a long time ago,

sadly, my lust for it can't pay the bill.

http://www.chanel.com

A home at Loft Ito, in Macau.

Beautifully furnitured homes, cheap rent,

the only drawback is it's inconvenience.

But, if I had the above car in Macau,

who's to complain?

http://www.loftito.com

I think that's all I can lust for at the moment,

I'm not the sort who likes to leave a huge gaping hole

so that the amount of slogging I put in can cover it up.

I wish I could be more content!

Bringing Up The House

2009-03-30T08:14:00.000+08:00

Greetings from Macau from two idiots
who feed the casino so well that it stands firm,
40 storeys high on the ground that it's been built on.
And their stupid antics.

The Up After The Down

2009-03-26T18:23:00.000+08:00

After passing, you take memorial photos..

Then you throw away everything

because it's fina-fucking-ly all over!

I wish you were here to share my joy.

You're like a magician, amazing me with your tricks

Then you do a disappearing act.

Here It Goes Again..

2009-03-19T04:09:00.000+08:00

See ya later folks!

Shuffling The Cards Of Your Game

2009-03-12T00:13:00.001+08:00

Eyes on fire, your spine is ablaze

Failing any foe with my gaze

And just in time, in the right place

Steadily emerging with grace

Sin City

2009-03-04T18:25:00.000+08:00

Greetings from Macau!

I've been here since Monday playing poker.

And my swings are quite legendary..

from all the way down to all the way up.

I'm amazed to see so many friends here,

and amazed at the air ticket ($200 one way! CHEAP!)

and amazed with the hotel room

cos it's how I want my house to be like..

Except it's gonna cost a bomb.

The tables are crazy, they have everything,

except for SiKiPi.. SIGH.

But! I'm in love with Craps right now.

Come to think of it, I may head down to play..

This is TRULY sin city.

Even The Best Fall Down Sometimes

2009-03-01T10:27:00.000+08:00

When will I ever learn?

Down today, didn't feel much of my hands and

didn't feel much of the game..

I should've known many things,

like for example not to play when I'm tired

and that there'll always be games around.

Another session at MML tonight,

I wonder how I'll fare since I'm slightly tilted

and seeing how good others run against me

I finally know how it feels to be the underdog.

X said, When there's a win, there's a loss;

Victory and defeat is common during war.

How very true..

But I hate others having the upper hand.

I need to learn to admit my mistakes,

to ask when in doubt,

to know when I'm wrong or right.

Being brain and body dead from two days of no sleep

and facing adversities such as this,

hopefully I'll learn to be stronger.

Breathe Me

2009-02-27T06:44:00.001+08:00

Be my friend

Hold me

Rock me up

Unfold me

I am strung

And needy

Warm me up

And breathe me.

No Mood To Fold

2009-02-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

I am officially going all the way down..

After seeing stuff that I wasn't meant to see

(You read my phone, so I read yours)

I went to seek solace in the shell.

Told all my troubles and listened,

laughed in the process of going bonkers,

and waited for evening to dawn.

In my boredom, I played online.

I should've known, because of my luck right now,

I shouldn't have touched it.

Lost everything, and then some.

I am being carried away,

it's hard to believe the truth and doubt the lies,

and this embarkation on a meaningless road

will probably take me to my grave.

On a lighter note,

meeting Nic for dinner!

I hope you like the present.. and the note.

If I can't be happy

Others can't be happy

You can't be happy

What the fuck are we all waiting for?

Hiatus And Whirlwinds

2009-02-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

Not much time to blog recently..

Really busy with life and all it's troubles.

But here's a photo just to keep you in check..

(And also to liven up this dead place)

Fried grasshoppers!!

This Vile Mix

2009-02-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

Alright, it's 4.17 in the afternoon

And, after a whole night of no sleep,

I'm sitting here in front of my laptop blogging again.

And, thinking about life, and the conversations

I had with each and every one of my friends..

But no matter how much I think or how hard I try,

I supposed I will never learn what I'm here for.

And if I did know, I don't think it would be as fufiling..

But, I digress.

Frankly, in my opinion,

the aim of anybody's life on Earth

is just, simply put, to be happy.

If being in a day job makes you happy,

or being poor or rich or sick or healthy,

being surrounded by people or not,

nobody is to judge how you should fufil that happiness.

Parents, all they want is for their kids to be happy.

As long as you are content, you will be happy.

Whether you are a murderer or a doctor.

Forgive me, I think.

Great-Aunt's visit + late night emo talks = An emo Anthea.

And I'm happy being like this, for now.

Believed

2009-02-02T17:10:00.000+08:00

We are all the same

Human in all our ways and all our pain

There's a love that could fall down like rain

Let forgiveness wash away the pain

And no one really knows what they are searching for

This world is crying for so much more

Let's Just Pretend..

2009-02-01T17:39:00.000+08:00

That I actually KNOW how to play the guitar..

All credits to Wilson for the photos!

These are my picked out favourites.

PS. I hate lion dances.

Worse Than A Whirlwind

2009-02-01T03:31:00.000+08:00

I am an idiot!

I lost a thousand dollar note from my wallet.

If anybody has any clue as to where it went,

please let me know.

(but I know it's impossible to get back sigh)

Lost it at Butter Factory, 30th January.

Probably paid $910 for a $90 bill

Cause I mistook the note for $100.

BLOODY TILTED.

Anyway, on a side note.

These few days have been fun, mostly with poker,

but the highlight was meeting my old friends.

First with Sshroomss,

at Starbucks Raffles City.

Even though it was only a short while,

it was fun, and damn good seeing you guys again.

Then, Steph and Jes to Butter Factory

since I bailed out so many times,

I made up for it with drinks

PEANUT BUTTER SHOTS!

(and a fucking $1000 loss)

Pictures are with her, I dunno if they're up, harhar.

But, I had fun.

Especially with RED and BLACK duct tape

HO HO HO.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year,

and Happy Lunar New Year to all.

All in one shot.

And Happy Valentine's Day too.

Just in case I don't appear here.

Blogging is tough, forgive me :D

The Life Of A Gambler

2009-01-29T14:48:00.000+08:00

Hate this feeling..

As though you've worked your blood and sweat

out to be a reputable stack,

on peanuts as a beginning,

just to throw it away on a stupid play

you thought you'd thought through

over and over again.

"All-in."

"I call."

"What? I'm all-in."

"Yes I know, I call."

SNAP call and you're down to your humble beginnings.

Much like life isn't it?

Thank God I'm up a little on Stars.

Pit Confidence

2009-01-23T19:00:00.000+08:00

Products of boredom + a few markers

Nothing much I've been doing these few days.

Nothing I'm looking forward to.

Just purely a tangled web of picking myself up

after the mess.. without a mentor to teach me how.

Dad just got back, lost his job,

Chinese New Year is coming,

I don't want any red packets.

I'm not in the holiday mood.. again.

I can't be happy.

Scrape that. I can't be content.

Star Guitar

2009-01-14T10:03:00.000+08:00

Singapore is too mother-effing SMALL
for all the good benefits and all the bad reasons

You should feel what I feel
You should take what I take

Anyway, guys go and check out a Japanese song
translated into "If It's Going To Be Like That Anyway"
I'm not sure about the translation though
but frankly, it's beautiful.

Shock Early Morning

2009-01-06T08:36:00.000+08:00

Please enlighten me as to who is glam enough

at 5am in the morning, hair messed, makeup messed

for a photoshoot in one of the most secluded places

in sunny little Singapore?

Me la, of course. There goes my ego,

soon it'll overtak Nibiru and engulf the Earth first.

But, really, Photoshop saved my life,

along with the other three.

Thanks for the pleasant surprise,

and the thrown-in mosquito bites :D

More photos on Facebook!

Boredom = Art

2009-01-04T20:43:00.000+08:00

I wonder, when all the masterpieces are created,
were the creators bored to death or actually 'inspired'?

Purple Tranceport

2008-12-28T06:13:00.000+08:00

I forgot to update about Timbre
with Esther, Amanda, Haowenz, and...
alamak I forgot your name
please don't kill me.

Here are pictures!
Even though we met for only a short while..

I spent Christmas.. making gifts for people.
And, I'm still not done!
Ohmigosh, I'm the world's best procrastinator.
But I am DETERMINED to finish them.

Went to Nat's party at JHA with Vernon.
God knows who tooks pictures and where they went..
But I spent the night stuffing myself with food
and listening to the music!
And I learnt a new game.. called Beer Pong.
It's pretty darn cool, I must say.
If i were in the mood for drinking I would play too.

Then, mom and bro came back,
and I surprised her with a wallet and a bag
and my brother with a brand new schoolbag.
(Yes Esther I know the bag was meant for me
but my mom said we'd share, so whoppee!)

Merry Christmas (12 days, I'm not late) all
and I can't wait till New Years' countdown!
I really hope Sshroomss come over
and we'd all have a nice cosy gathering.

And I miss you, wifey,
have your DaiDee skills improved yet??

I'm happy at the moment.
I only live for the moment.
Let me die happy now!

Kings & Vagabonds

2008-12-27T12:58:00.000+08:00

I woke up today

and found nothing..

Anybody, find me,

somebody to love.

I feel empty.

Seems Like A Good Way To Go

2008-12-25T16:30:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas!

I am officially in love with Twilight.

I Just Want Back In Your Head

2008-12-21T08:13:00.000+08:00

Okay, as expected or not,

I'm back early from Cheng-fucking-Du.

Cause I simply, couldn't take it there anymore.

Don't let the pictures fool you,

the air there is so polluted that when you look up,

all you see is grey smoke, because right now,

ChengDu is simply one big construction site.

Dad was pretty unhappy that I wanted to leave,

and mom was caught in the crossfire.

Which sucked, cause I know

my dad's personality is exactly the same as mine,

except for the fact that I know how it feels

to be faced with THAT personality.

So basically I can't change nuts on the isle of parenthood.

A self portrait because..

noone in my family wants to take me.

(Even when I try candid shots)

When I touched down in Singapore,

I went home, and VOILA, the gate was locked.

Which meant that I was locked out of my own house.

So, I had to stayover at a friend's place,

while multiple messages to my aunt

didn't help much till noon..

And, I still had to take a cab home myself.

But! At least I had a consolation, which was..

I finally watched my long-awaited movie!

Twilight, is the shit. Really.

Much thanks to the Lion!

I don't give two hoots about it being a chick flick and all

But its just.. too.. (urgh what's the word)

SWEET. Makes me wonder when such things

will ever happen to people like me in countries like this.

Then, met the clique at Blu Jaz cafe..

which was noisy! It was hard to convey a sentence

let alone a sore throat trying to shout over Fendi's tunes.

Yeah, I recognized him from uhh...

Live The Dream? Even though I virtually watch no TV.

Oh joy, the noise.

And, for one thing, I personally DISLIKE jazz.

I think that leaves me pretty low-class eh hah!

Sara, get drunk already you.

Since you're so red,

I'd changed your picture's hue to blue instead.

Neutralization!

I recommend that you do NOT buy the Ice Blended Mocha..

Maybe I lost my taste buds and all.

But I could barely finish half a cup.

Just my personal opinion..

Then, on to Butter Factory,

with absolutely no intent of taking pictures

since Mr. Yeah-I'll-Get-You-Your-Laptop-By-Tomorrow showed up.

But! I came out to have a good time, it will NOT ruin my night.

I just got back from a random photo shoot at Seletar..

and WORK! The only way to get by.

I'd post the pictures once I get them though..

I hope the dark theme turns out fine,

since, I was NOT ready, my make up was horrible,

and it was 5 in the morning.

But thanks J for the ride there and back.

And, finally, I leave you with a random picture of..

make a wild wild wild guess.

Hardy har har!

By the way,

does anyone want to play

Mahjong or poker with me?

I need a life.

Season's Greetings

2008-12-17T08:56:00.000+08:00

Season's greetings from the middle kingdom!

I know I'm being a bit unorthodox

by doing a disappearing act then re-appearing.

BUT.. let me talk about the happy times before the bad..

Beginning with my mom's birthday!

Which was celebrated at Ah Yat's seafood restaurant

with dad, Adrian, grandma and me (including mum of course).

Every dish was a spicy dish, except the vegetables.

Which was very well, because I felt no hunger.

Then, a strawberry cheesecake for her birthday!

Actually, a quarter of which.

This is making me hungry..

And, how to form a smiley face

with onion rings and french fries

at Burger King.

Complete with MOHAWK, MIND YOU!

Then, hanging out with the girls, all over the place.

Addicted to drawing, then Twirl, poking, monopoly,

speaking in accents, and all that.

Ripped tights! Ruined a perfectly good pair.

That's the happy pictures I have for now,

the rest are with Steph and there's tonnes,

but we're all too lazy to blog about them whatsoever.

On to the bad stuff.. I really need a laptop back,

if you're reading this, do try to understand my situation.

And to H, things can be so much better if you let it.

And I still think so much about how you're doing.

To my friends, which I have been kkbz-ing for the longest time

thank you for showing concern and everything to me,

and I know that you guys are right about everything.

I need time to slowly pick myself up,

and I just hope you guys will not leave me behind..

There's one thing I wish most to do right now,

to watch a movie in a theater.

I want to go back to Singapore,

I want my life to be happy again,

and I want to see my parents proud, not disappointed.

This is getting harder by the day!

I just hope in the end, everyone is happy.

This is the worst Christmas I think I will ever face.

Want, Need

2008-11-28T10:20:00.000+08:00

I have lost.. my MacBook.

Seemed like everything at that point

then, came the handphone,

then the wallet.

Why does everything that can go wrong

go wrong all in one go?

WHEN THIS IS ALL OVER

I WILL HAVE MYSELF

A FUCKING RAD HOLIDAY

Rock N' Roll Queen

2008-11-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

This week

has been a fucking roller coaster ride.

I don't think that I can

keep up with myself forever

Longer Here

2008-11-03T12:38:00.001+08:00

So I (think I) finally got my life back on track,

what with a new job,

and hopefully brighter days ahead.

Still in a deepshit dilemma though,

about whether to go back to school or not.

And please remember,

I have to support my own ass through it.

Some pictures, for memory's sake.

But I'm still in the midst of figuring out how to help

I think what Vernon said is pretty true

cause when you help others with their problems,

you tend to forget your own.

I need to be less selfish!

I have so much more than I deserve,

yet the focus is on what I don't have instead.

Spiral

2008-10-27T05:25:00.001+08:00

Bending over backwards

just to try to see it clearer

My life is spinning out of control

Catchphrrase

2008-10-20T14:32:00.001+08:00

'Please stop living your life in short breaths'

I can feel myself slowly descending down.

Fight For A Reason

2008-10-08T05:23:00.000+08:00

My new discovery..

iChat. Amazing stuff.

Midnight video call with Matt just to test it out -

Would you stop talking

Because I don't think we agree

You're always keeping all your borders up

I think that something must be wrong with me

Well I know you don't like it

You're no exclusive company

You're always keeping all your borders up

And its a little more than you and me.

[ No, you gotta fight for a reason,

what's your reason? ]

I hate judgements.

Fashion Nation

2008-10-06T16:05:00.000+08:00

I wonder why..

Do cigarettes complete your outfit?

Cause every time I notice a cool photo of someone

off the streets, they're holding a stick.

www.fashion-ation.net

Status Quo

2008-10-04T16:27:00.000+08:00

Party party party.

I try when I can.

Crazy nights at Zouk, as you can tell.

I need a change of locations!

Ps. On a side note, my birthday is coming.

Mark it in your calendars!

FIFTEENTH OCTOBER FIFTEENTHEOKTOBRE

Can't believe my ego, can you?

Paper Airplanes

2008-10-03T03:42:00.000+08:00

What the past two days have been.

I've argued with Glenn, over and over again and I hate it.

It's been tough, always busy and occupied.

Yesterday was Zouk with an array of people

I can't really recall.

And an array of things that happened

that I can't really remember either.

Pictures another time.

I'm going to practice my Photoshop skillz

and curse those goddamn pimples

and double chins to hell.

Crimewave

2008-09-29T15:11:00.000+08:00

I don't understand..

Why is it that when nobody picks up the phone,

some people are THAT patient to keep holding the line?

So, brrrrrrrrg brrrrrrrrg.

And more brrrrrg brrrrrrg.

This morning, the phone couldn't stop ringing,

messages couldn't stop coming.

I just wish there was a way to answer it all

without getting my lazy ass up out of bed.

This Can't Be Happening

2008-09-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

What a weekend!

First, it was Zouk with Mig & Jude after work

where we got smashed and one leftover bottle of Belv.

Then, it was clique outing with Sshroomss

Where I burnt my thumb on the steak hotplate,

and had to forfeit the game.

We experimented with food mode

on each other's cameras -

Tell me, does my scallop look delish or what?

Jieying became our official corn cutter

Just place your corn on her hotplate and hey presto!

Instant cup corn HAHA.

Then in the midst of our outing,

I felt something stuck in my eye and pulled this out -

Not the finger damnnit, it's the length of hair beside it

Longer than my fringe it is!

My finger is there to show you just how long it is.

It was like something out of Saw

and YiMei almost puked.

It was wedged as a contact would be if it were stuck.

Disgusting right! I was disgusted too alright.

Then, it was off to Zouk for Carl Cox, Jacklyn & Glenn.

(In no particular order)

But came the attack of the blood relative

and I had to head home due to cramps.

When I came home, I saw my dad at home!

Pretty much shocked that I've decided to quit school though.

I am terribly rash.

But, moving on..

When I woke up it was off to FORMULA ONE BABY!

I should have NOT worn heels, but stupid me.

Now I'm blistered, but it was worth it.

Despite all the heat, sweating and walking around

It was good to see a sort of underdog win..

Alonso was it? Followed by Josberg or something or other..

I MUST thank you for the amazing experience,

but I think we will know better next year, yeah?

Please pardon my lousy camera and the lousy fence.

So right now, my thumb is burnt,

mosquito bites plague my body

because of the quay outside Zouk

my Auntie came to visit,

I'm blistered from Formula One,

and sore-eyed from the hair.

I am declaring myself officially accident-prone.

The Prayer

2008-09-26T10:39:00.000+08:00

I am sick!

I am back from 16 hours of non-stop work.

Hell yeah, I just wanted to advertise myself

for being so fucking hardworking.

In With New

2008-09-25T06:17:00.000+08:00

Cover up for my old tattoo,

that apparently looks like a ----.

Drew it myself! A sakura tree branch.

That's just the outline.

Imagine the leaves green, flowers red,

branches blackwork.

Just about completes the picture.

That's all for today!

So shagged from 12 hours of work.

Army Is Taking Everything

2008-09-22T14:18:00.000+08:00

Last day of poker for a week for Glenn,

and vow-breaking for me.

Sushi before that, and sleep before that.

I feel like some beef carpaccio right now..

Is anybody out there interested in opening a small shop

bringing in foreign brands with me?

I think I'd like to start working full time..

Work at 4.30! Grr.